Over But Not Over

Yesterday was Zuri's due date. The whole day felt really strange; I was distracted most of the day by lots of questions swirling in my head. Mostly wondering what Zuri would have looked like had she been born healthy (full-term) and if she had lived. With the due date passing it feels like the end of a chapter, but at the same time I know I'm still on this journey of finding a new normal.

Derek was sweet and arranged for us to go out on a date. We dropped Toby off with my in-laws and we went out for dinner and a movie. It was nice to spend some alone time with Derek, we needed it.

For some reason today was harder than yesterday. But as always, God is faithful to give me the words to say to Him when I feel so empty and weak. I went on a walk earlier and this song came on as soon as I opened Pandora on my phone. Totally sums up the constant prayer of my heart.